Ch-ch-ch-changes

"Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.."

It is hard to accept the things that have come my way this past year and a half. If it wasn't for being away from home by being at school, I would have probably gone crazy and ended up in a mental institute. Things are going to be really different and depressing these next few holidays. My parents got divorced this past May (I think that's when it was official), so this will be the first year that I will be celebrating the holidays not as one big family. Christmas was always my favorite time of year. I loved driving by homes and seeing their decorations. I got excited when I saw all of the department stores putting up their Christmas stuff in October. But, this year, I just can't be happy. I've tried my hardest to get into the Christmas spirit. It just isn't happening. The only thing that I will be excited about is going to my sister's house and playing with my niece and nephew. This Thursday, when everyone is pigging out on turkey and mashed potatoes and spending time with their families, I will be spending time either at my dad's or my mom's house doing nothing. We aren't even doing Thanksgiving on Thanksgiving Day.
It's like nothing is going my way and I can't catch a break. And I hate even writing this because I feel like I'm whining and complaining. I'd rather write this and have maybe one person read it than talk about it with someone and bother them.
I just don't know how much more hurting I can take.
And people that I thought were there for me, apparently don't care. But that's another story...